cheerish every cherry

wisely said, this month should be the one of the greatest month in my life since ....
1) im turning 23 last 2nd february
2) im getting engaged to the man i love the end of this month (InsyaAllah)

but to achieve both situations, i've been going through lots of emotional achieving and distractions. all of them make me realize how world is around me. and how should one act to different situations. i just want to be me.

and what i can say is..its growing deeper and more passionate.its growing matured and more stronger. its growing to be great later on.

i've been quite busy lately with my first processing project which dealing with 3D marine seismic in block PM308, offshore Peninsular Malaysia.

though I have no interest with this processing job but as times goes by, i have to face it jugak.no choice maaa..but as long as money been cash in into my account each month and i have job, that will be more than enough for now.Alhamdulillah. other people may sees me as very lucky this whole 2009 but there are obstacles to face too. and they were unusually different. people sees that im lucky to get this job in a so called overseas company after being so called 'released' by petronas (which somehow a blessed and a disaster), got to go overseas for 3months training, got paid and further more got a project now..

And i let others say what they think bout my fate and how lucky i am. they have they right to feel good about it, or to envy me.. and as a friend, as a person, i don't mind telling them advices when they are in difficult situations like those i was in before.sometime i feel i am the choosen one, the selected one to face the obstacles that Allah always knows I can handle it.

As nature of a geology student, I am more interested in interpretation than processing. But i must admit processing give me different view of interpreting geological subsurface. and as i grown up (im turning 23 soon! gosh) and i viewed life in different ways from i viewed before, im thinking of teaching in university. i know it won't be as easy as i think.everything have obstacles but I will be in the world I belong too, the world I love too, and I will surely have more time for my future family.

I have so many things list up in my mind. I have so many plans to be done, I have so many hopes and I also have many responsibilities...other people have it as welll (but this is my blog, so I care for mine only)...but luckily I got very supportive and understanding parents, boyfriend, brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews..i think, people can envy me on this part, i feel so lucky to be surrounded by them every day.

my wish before ending this entry is that, Allah will permudahkan everything lay down ahead of me and my future husband..and also to make it easier to my parents and brothers.

31st December 2008:
I was practically homeless, staying with Kak Ira in Victoria Park...working as Sedimentary Lab Assistant in Curtin Uni, Perth for SouthWest Sulawesi Reservoir Project. Since it was the last day in 2008 and might be the last new year eve I celebrated in Perth, I decided to join the crowd to watch firework show along burswood park, swan river together with few girlfriends.
The warm brezzing perth summer's wind was really nice and I still remember the simple cream outfit I wore that night. It was one of the moment I cheerish by myself. I walked along swan river, enjoying the night view of Perth city, remembering all the hardship, happiness and good things I went through 2008. once the firework shows start, I closed my eyes and tried to throw away all the bad things happened to me in 2008 and wish for a better year in 2009, wish to be a useful person to my parents and brothers.I end up my 2008 and welcoming my 2009 all by myself though there were girlfriends around me, but honestly I cheerish the swan river firework by myself.

31st December 2009,
I go through my day as normal. goes to work, do all the work as a geophysicist in cggveritas, went out for lunch with officemate. I am not homeless now. I rent a house with friends in wangsa maju. I live in Kuala Lumpur now. No more warm perth's summer wind. it is all surrounded by humid, hot, un-cleaned air.there is no more firework to see. not saying that there is no such kind of celebration but i have no heart for it this year. i rather stay indoor than spending my final night in 2009 outside the house. though KL is in my country. i don't think i belong here. i belong to some other peaceful tranquil place like perth.but as I'm typing this entry, my mind is full of memories in 2009 which will keep in my mind forever. This is the year i really becoming an adult. a working lady.this is the year i meet my other half. this is the year that gives me lessons i can never have if i was somewhere else. this is the year i will never forget.

i have so much to jote down here.but it all left unsaid in my mind. i just can wish that 2010 will be as great as previous 22 years i've been living in this world. i don't ask for more than what a person need, but i wish that all the happiness i have, all the love i feel and all the good things that happened to me in 2009, stay as it is, improve as it should be. and i wish that all the bad lucks,all the bad memories in 2009 remains in 2009 and not following me in 2010.

with that, i will start 2010 with ikhlas in my heart to be a better person, a better daughter, a better girlfriend, a good wife in the future, a better employee and all my dreams come true.

here i put some pictures to remind me of few important things happened to me in 2009:

11.11.1958,
the day my Ayah was born.
He was born in Kampung Sungai Seluang, Kulim, Kedah (my kampung now).
Ayah is very outdoor kampung boy. He is intelligent especially in maths and geography but due to very low chances he get when he was young and also due to lack of courage and opportunity, he did not further his study after high school. But he did a very good job teaching all four of us.

I am the first in the family and to be more lucky, the only daughter in the family. so, i know that he will surely loves me to the bottom of his heart. since i was a baby..or maybe since the first day i can memorize moment...i remember, Ayah will sang me a song..it sounded like this

There are few more lyrics. this song was a copyright from P.Ramlee film.It means so much to me. Even till now. My dad is very hardworking person. When I was in primary school and when my mum was still working in Butterwoth office, I will have lunch with my dad almost every day. He will bought me 'nasik bungkus' and we will share it together. Such a time to remember.
Then he will accompany me to Kelas Agama in the afternoon while he riding his motrocycle to the office. In the evening, he will take me out to nearby playground or badminton court, or just take me around for sightseeing. My little brother, Imran will also accompany me.

Then, when i went to boarding school after UPSR, (sometime I think that was the craziest thing I did)....he was the happiest person after i annouced my UPSR result and also the offer to TKC. he sacrificed a lot for me to be in that school,not to mentioned how much my mum sacrificed for me. and also my brothers.

And today, 11.11.2009,
My Ayah is celebrating his 51st birthday. Not much for us in the family to celebrate since all of us is currently down with conjunctivitis. We just wish ayah simple wish,pray for his health and happiness, and went out for dinner outside. Though there is nothing fancy for Ayah from me this year, I will buy him something for sure later. But I realized, the current news I told him few days before his 51st birthday was the biggest present to him. I am surely he is more than happy with the news.

And not much to say, I wish my Ayah to have prosperous years ahead, healthier than before, happier than before, and surrounded by everyone he loves and things he likes. Happy Birthday Ayah...

Below is my masterpiece for Ayah 51st Birthday :-

learn new recipe from mum today.
we call it ayam pesamah..or maybe ayam negro? sbb kaler hitam.:P

very simple tp ayah ckp sedap:D

ingredients:
1: pieces of chicken..
2: rempah kari ayam
3: kicap manis cap kipas udang
4: serai sebatang
5: halia siket
6: sos cili maggi
7: garam siket
8: bawang putih
9: daun kari
10: potatoes (cut into cubes)

method:
1: firstly, mix all ingredients (no 2-9) in one bowl.put some water.just a bit.
2: let the ingredient mix well for 5-10 minutes.
2: panaskan kuali.masukkan siket minyak and campurkan all the mixture.
3: then put the chicken and potatoes.
4: wait for 10-14minutes.check if the chicken is well cook or not.
5: then serve with white rice.
sedapppp:D:D:D
3:

i really miss my mum now.
i want to sleep next to her.
i want to cuddle her.
i want to talk to her.
i want her.

i miss u mum.

this one whole week has been very packed and busy for me. i got my presentation topic on Tuesday and has to present it by 9.00am Thursday morning which me I have less than 48hours to prepare for the test. So, struggling begin since Tuesday night. Both me and my very best person stay up in the office for both Tuesday and Wednesday night.