*~ATHIDEAN~*

11.11.1958,
the day my Ayah was born.
He was born in Kampung Sungai Seluang, Kulim, Kedah (my kampung now).
Ayah is very outdoor kampung boy. He is intelligent especially in maths and geography but due to very low chances he get when he was young and also due to lack of courage and opportunity, he did not further his study after high school. But he did a very good job teaching all four of us.

I am the first in the family and to be more lucky, the only daughter in the family. so, i know that he will surely loves me to the bottom of his heart. since i was a baby..or maybe since the first day i can memorize moment...i remember, Ayah will sang me a song..it sounded like this

There are few more lyrics. this song was a copyright from P.Ramlee film.It means so much to me. Even till now. My dad is very hardworking person. When I was in primary school and when my mum was still working in Butterwoth office, I will have lunch with my dad almost every day. He will bought me 'nasik bungkus' and we will share it together. Such a time to remember.
Then he will accompany me to Kelas Agama in the afternoon while he riding his motrocycle to the office. In the evening, he will take me out to nearby playground or badminton court, or just take me around for sightseeing. My little brother, Imran will also accompany me.

Then, when i went to boarding school after UPSR, (sometime I think that was the craziest thing I did)....he was the happiest person after i annouced my UPSR result and also the offer to TKC. he sacrificed a lot for me to be in that school,not to mentioned how much my mum sacrificed for me. and also my brothers.

And today, 11.11.2009,
My Ayah is celebrating his 51st birthday. Not much for us in the family to celebrate since all of us is currently down with conjunctivitis. We just wish ayah simple wish,pray for his health and happiness, and went out for dinner outside. Though there is nothing fancy for Ayah from me this year, I will buy him something for sure later. But I realized, the current news I told him few days before his 51st birthday was the biggest present to him. I am surely he is more than happy with the news.

And not much to say, I wish my Ayah to have prosperous years ahead, healthier than before, happier than before, and surrounded by everyone he loves and things he likes. Happy Birthday Ayah...

Below is my masterpiece for Ayah 51st Birthday :-

learn new recipe from mum today.
we call it ayam pesamah..or maybe ayam negro? sbb kaler hitam.:P

very simple tp ayah ckp sedap:D

ingredients:
1: pieces of chicken..
2: rempah kari ayam
3: kicap manis cap kipas udang
4: serai sebatang
5: halia siket
6: sos cili maggi
7: garam siket
8: bawang putih
9: daun kari
10: potatoes (cut into cubes)

method:
1: firstly, mix all ingredients (no 2-9) in one bowl.put some water.just a bit.
2: let the ingredient mix well for 5-10 minutes.
2: panaskan kuali.masukkan siket minyak and campurkan all the mixture.
3: then put the chicken and potatoes.
4: wait for 10-14minutes.check if the chicken is well cook or not.
5: then serve with white rice.
sedapppp:D:D:D
3:

i really miss my mum now.
i want to sleep next to her.
i want to cuddle her.
i want to talk to her.
i want her.

i miss u mum.

this one whole week has been very packed and busy for me. i got my presentation topic on Tuesday and has to present it by 9.00am Thursday morning which me I have less than 48hours to prepare for the test. So, struggling begin since Tuesday night. Both me and my very best person stay up in the office for both Tuesday and Wednesday night.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

feeling very dizzy right now. maybe its the symptoms of fever i got from encik Ah Leng...
but I don't mind, at least I have some one to look after me if I fall sick now...

esok i will be off to Ipoh for geology field trip sponsored by UTP..

ok...night...

2004

1: Was 17years old, studying in Tunku Kurshiah College Seremban. Had been there for nearly 5years since 19th January 2000.The day I considered being an independant person.

2:Was a school prefect (in fact I was Leader for Fine and Discipline Biro in the Prefect Board)...it was good since I got the chance to stay in our so called luxurious room in Block G. With own toilet, own kitchenet and living room @ study room. Wearing white baju kurung with dark green kain sekolah and black lady like shoes. and Usually have to wear one whole suit of blazer with tie..(which make me hate it sbb terlalu panas)!

3:Have a group of close friends (Noor Shaheeza Isham, Nurul Zulaikha Sallihuddin, Soraya Azhar, Nurul Izzah Meor Abdullah, Nur Shahida Hadi, Nadiah As'ari, Nurul Aainaa Azmi and lots more..144 titans are my good friends after all!)

4:Aim of the year: Straight A's (without the teacher expecting me to be in the list) in SPM. Improve my english skill and be in Set 1 class for English lesson through out the year and get scholarship from goverment to further in medicine.

5:Activities in school: Athlet for 100m, 200m and join the 4x100 and 4x200m...once up to state level (in 2003), Innovation Team for school joining few competitions among SBP, INTEL etc. Presiden for Cyber Cafe Corner (poyo je rasa), Nakibah (lagi tak layak), State Theatre Group (2003) dan dot dot dot..(mls nak list plak..)

5: Activity jahat paling best: Panjat bumbung sickbay beberapa jam sebelum English Drama (ED), berfoya foya sebentar di atas bumbung sickbay ( I still keep the photos!), dikejar warden2 di pagi hari..kena kejar dengan penyapu lagi by cik Alia...
Stay up makan roti dgn tuna and dikejar puan romas and cik yati pastu lari menyorok dalam toilet and belakang pintu bersama ketua2 prefect yang lain...(this was cool gila)...
and paling best masa f1-f4 stay up using lights corridor..(reason why im wearing this thick spectacles)..

6: Bestest moment in TKC: lots to list. I even can write a novel on this. so, I conclude that year 2004's best thing was my SPM Result Day. I was crying and crying and crying cause I never ever believe I can do it. I was down with fever for the first two days of SPM (with the very killer paper Add Maths and also BM)...I was even expected to have dengue and have to go through blood tests! Alhamdulillah, it was the best part out of all sacrificing my whole teenage life in a place known as Bukit Merbah, living my loved ones far.top of all, making my parents proud is the best thing I can do when I was there.

7: Aim not achieve:I want to do medic so deeply since I know what is ambition is. But, Allah had fated the best path for me. I was never excell well in Biology. which means I cant be a good doctor and there is no scholarship offering me doing medicine or something related to it. Engineering and Science appear to be part of my path later after 2004.and here I am as a geophysicist learning hard to get a better knowledge. I wanted to be part of hockey player. but i can;t.mak tak bagi.